Since I doubt what I write will be terribly interesting, I’ve provided you with something to listen to.
I’ve really stepped away from blogging this past year. It’s not that I no longer have an opinion, I just got tired of writing about it. In the grand scheme of things, it really didn’t matter. The one constant is that someone will always speak their opinion when you don’t. I’ve decided to spend a lot less time simply expressing my opinion and more time doing something. Not necessarily something political, but something other than talking about politics.
I’m also going back overseas. I haven’t decided yet if I’ll write about my experiences. I doubt I will have anything exciting to write about. A majority of service members overseas experience an effect referred to as “Groundhog Day”. Each day we get up and do the same thing day after day. You can try to vary your actions, but ultimately the same milestones happen every single day. That’s not an exact science, it’s just a perception of course.
Last time I was over I really lost track of time. I would look at the calendar and realize a week had past unnoticed, but I still couldn’t shake the overall sensation that time was crawling. The only word I can think to describe that feeling is ‘awkward’. So I am going back knowing full well I’m going to spend a great amount of time feeling awkward.
I actually really need to get out of town for awhile. Life can really disappoint you sometimes. Some things you thought to be true turn out to be completely opposite. Sometimes the people close to you really aren’t and that’s something that can shake the foundation of your soul. In all honestly, I’m not entirely sure what direction my life is going. Of course I have goals, but there were specific people I wanted along on my journey towards those goals. Now I’m re-evaluating those goals and if I even want anyone close to me.
I know it’s stupid to hope in the 80’s teen movie “this school year is gonna be different” sense, but I hope everything is different when I get back.
Just know that sometimes just having a voice empowers us to be the change we seek. I think that’s part of a quote from Ghandi, but regardless it seems appropriate. Even thought I just found this site (while dealing with a tech issue), you touched someone far away you may never meet. Those are the small things in life that can hold power and meaning.
Good luck with all!
Comment by "Tattoo" Art Dodger — Wednesday 2 May, 2007 @ 22:09